Friday, December 28, 2012

stuggling.

Now that i think of it, in just 3 days i am 15 already. Then school starts. I'll be struggling for PMR next year. That means less online for me and more studying. My mom expects me to get many A's. But i'm not smart like the other kids out there. But mom just don't get me. But i can't blame her, she wants a better future for me. I'll must work hard to make her proud of me. My UPSR results suckss. ==" 2A's 3B's and 2D's ! i failed my chinese. Hohoho. but i and A for english and malay paper one. maths,science and malay paper two B. i was hoping malay ppr 2 was A. but i was just so stupid. my real targer was 3A's 2B's and 2C's . tapi nda kesampaian............... biarlahh tu kenangan lampau :-P skrng mau fokus PMR!! well maybe this is too early to set a target but my targe!t is 4A's 3B's. wakakakaka. kalau dapat laaa :'( that's why i wanna work hard! no more fooling around! and most of all NO MORE FALLING IN LOVE! falling in love with someone adalah perkara yg paling buang masa! hilang fokus mau belajar! haisss. t'ingt terus bad memories ohh spanjang 2012 ==" i cried 3 times for 3 different guys! how weak. that's why i didn't focus much on my exams this year. and i had bad grades == ! mana dpt fokus kan ? jadi i will force myself to block my heart! tapi mcm mana ba tdamau jatuh sinta ni? :( i fall for guys easily aishhhh. itula kelemahan sa. i love them easily. and i get hurt easily too. tapi i'll try my best to keep my head on the books. next year no more jalan2 with friends, no more online-ing too much. ahhahaha,. kbye. tba2 malas mau menaip

Monday, December 24, 2012

annoying person -,-

So there's this person. i've been ditching him, quite a long time already. Let's say, he's my worse nightmare? Nahhh, just kidding. Well, he's not really my worse nightmare. Well, i just hate him. He's actually an EX ==" he broke up with me two times then he asked me a third chance. Dulu la. Bla bla bla. lama juga dia brabis merayu. balik2 sa reject suda. it's been almost a year i haven't seen his face. I forgot how he looks like already. Since he moved to somewhere else. But who cares. Kin gali dia guna ayat2 jiwang dulu. hahahaha. bila t'ingt balik lucu pula. wahahaha. susah btl mau buat dia give up. terpaksa sa guna cara menipu yg sa ada urg lain sdh. tus blablabla bnyk perkara b'laku. mls sa mau taip hehehoho. ntah npa sa xmau kasi dia chance. i really don't have any intentions of taking him back, but when i heard he moved on and has a new girlfriend. i felt devastated. I don't even know why. but deep down inside, i still care bout him. hahaha. so we just become friendas. then, lama2 makin kin panas gaya dia !@#$%^& then i ditch him. i never replied his text messages ever again. i didn't even think of him a bit. because he texted me so many times and i didn't replied then maybe he thought i changed my number and he never texted me again. Baguslah (Y) then sejak sekian lama, i was scrolling on facebook, and i liked every post that i saw. then suddenly, i saw this person facebook name, it gave me nostalgia feelings bout his name. but i didn't remember anything. I just felt like i knew that name. but that facebook account didn't use real name. so, i checked his profile, then something hit me on my brain. it was him. then i checked his picture. but i don't even remember his face anymore. he looked more mature than the last time i saw him at school. i wasn't sure if that was him or not. so looked through my old facebook conversations, blm lagi t'smpai tmpt dia then dpt chat dari tu fb. dia bilang hai:) tus sa pura2 tanya sepa ni. tus dia ckp dia tu urg. zzzz. nahh kan. so i'm chatting with him now. and he got a new gf already. but says his lonely. ishhh budu teda urg tanya. to be honest, sakit juga la hati. tapi biarlah. siapa suru sya :D k la. malas sa mau lyn dia. ba sa chau dulu. peace yo. hahahahha.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

XD

I just realise something. I've just snapped out of it. Haha, my big bro yg kasi snap, we just got back from sunset mass at church, and kami sekeluarga pgi mkn d kadai, and like always, i accidently teased my lil bro, then mula la drg ijik2 sa ==" tba2 my big bro masuk campur. then the war began. selalu pun bgtu. Mesti drg ijik orang2 yg sy pernah suka wakakaka. Dua2 punya mulut daras btl. Mau2 ni sa menangis d kadai xD then they tease my old crush, yg sy t'gila2 kan tu. Wahahahaha. Budu, lucu btl drg. Then my big bro says "b'kumis2 lagi tu, entah kenapa mau pg suka cina tua *laughs* kau buta kali ni" waahahahha. and d sana sy t'snap. bnyk ni abg sepupu sy yg tau sa punya crush sepa tus ketawa2 ijik2, drg blg sa butakah. wahahahaha. okay, jahat oh drg. yaa, mmng dia tdk hensem. kdg2 sa t'geli sama diri sa sendiri sbp suka dia wahahaha punyaa jahat sa ==" kalu cantik == okayy, sorry2. tpi, mcm mna lagi, sa pernah benci dia kan. Ohyaa, i've gotten over him completely xD. I din't even think of him during holidays xD kecuali yg awal2 la hahaha. I feel freeeeeeee. Haahhaah. whenever lagu jiwang b'pasang mau temuntah sa dgr wakakaka. kin panas ni dgr xD apa lagi quotes yg jiwang2, lau dulu selalu sa mau baca brabis skrng, teda mood ohh langsung xD bahagia ohh bgini xD walaupun lonely sikit, tapi siok lg :D dpt lagi sa fokus ma Tuhan dan family sa. Teda lagi sy sikit2 sakit hati, sikit2 jeles2. hahaha. gete okay. waakakakka. I hope next year, i don 't fall in love with anyone :D i wanna focus on PMR!! if i can la. Sebab mana kita dpt jangka ni hati kan. Kdg2 pndai dtg kesundalan dia. Ni taun sedih ja saaaa. i cried 3 times for 3 different guys this year. gete kan xD non of my relationships lasts long. Ada yg belum lg jadi pun suda sa t'menangis2 == lemah betul. kin gali. palui. mcm budu ja mau menangis2 ==" biarlah tu, tu kisah 2012. that's why for 2013 no more falling for any bastard. I still have a long way to go in my life. I will meet Mr. Right when i grow up ! but rite now, yg palui2 ja tu. hahahaha. lucu ni sy tngk ory yg ckp kunun "FOREVER" , "INFINITE", "NOT MY FIRST BUT MY LAST" bla bla bla bnyk lg la. puihh laa tu semua. Cinta munyit ja ba tu. Ndabaaa, ada juga la yg kekal btl2 ;) tpi kebanyakkan tdk. hahaaha. Tapi sy jeles juga ni kdg2, org yg relationship dia smpai b'tahun2, tapi masi lg sweet xD. tapi teapa lahh. siapa lahh sa ni kan. gumuk. bejerawat ==" tapi ini lah sy. wakakak bnyk suda sa merapuhh. ba k bye. dtg lagi satu masalah =="

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Time flies by so fast.........

Without me realizing, it's already 22nd of december. Christmas is around the corner. 25th December, the day my lord saviour Jesus Christ was born. I can't wait for that ;D Hmm, seriously i didn't even realize that it's already December. Mcm yang hari terakhir sekolah utk 2012 baru kemarin. And now, 10 more days and school re-opens for 2013. I don't know which class i'm gonna be in, but i'm quite sure it's still in the same class. 90% sure. But whatever. Who cares which class i'm gonna be in. If i'm still in the same class, i hope there's no annoying people gets in our class. Paling bgs, everyone in our class maintains. Because this year, i really love everyone in my class. So many fun,humiliating,sad,annoying moments with them. ehh yaka, ntah la ;p tapi ada la juga urg bikin panas di kelas. hohohoh. tp nda barapa juga la. I hope 2013, will be a better year, not like 2012, we lost a friend ;(( KENNY YAP I miss him a lot. I had a dream bout him. But i say it here, because i'm too lazy to type. But, in my dream, he told me he misses us ;) haihh, bnyk juga org kasi cerita yg drg t'mimpi dia. Haih, i hope he's with God now. Ohya, baru2 ni drg ckp kiamat la apa segala. Tp thank God nothing happened on 21.12.12 . I hope everything's fine now. I've already bought all my school stuffs. Aishh, tapi kin panas ohh. I didn't get the form 3 text book. Because i lost one form 2 textbook. It's a chinese text book. Bkn penting utk sy juga ;p i wanted to pay it this year, but the teacher says next year baru buli bayar. Jadi next year baru buli dapat. asihhhhhhh. kalau next year mesti tdk lengkap suda tu buku text yg kana kasi. Mesti ada yg hilang2 suda tu. haisss. teapa la, baru sa tau, kotoh. sepa suru kasi hlng buku ==".